When deciding about my goals for this year there was one thing above all that my soul was aching for…something that I had in a way forbidden myself to dream about for 30 years…painting.
If you followed my personal journey here on my blog you will know why – just saying ‘medusa’ 😉 https://isabelcurdes.com/the-journey-prologue/ – but in the end the only thing that matters is that I freed this dream and started to paint – or better I have started to teach myself to paint from books and videos.
There was no doubt in my mind that it would have to be watercolour and ink as those techniques are the ones that work so well with my personal vision and inspiration. Painting with watercolour and ink can be intuitive, free, and full of ‘happy accidents’. They flow, have an ethereal and transparent quality and are in a way unpredictable and imperfect, just like our lives.
So I rearranged my little studio, sorted out photo-equipment to make space and finances available to embark on this journey. I know it will not be a quick and easy one, but I feel it is the one I am ‘destined’ to make. If I can learn the ‘how tos’ it will give me the possibility to paint those images that I could not create with my camera and together with my photography, bookmaking and writing I feel that it will make my creative life complete.
In the last few weeks – after I got my paints, paper and brushes – I have already painted more than 100 images – each one a study of colour or a certain technique. Most of them will finally end up in the bin but for now I am keeping them to learn from each one. You can see some of them on my magnetic wall and in the pile on the table and just a tiny selection below.
My goal is not to create a masterpiece or even to sell them, my goal is just to enjoy painting and express what I see and feel. Will some of the paintings end up in a hand-made book one day – yes, most likely, as I have already started to put some ideas together on my vision board, mixing photos, paintings and poems. My whole creativity seems to have been rekindled after a rather sleepy 2018 and I am enjoying every moment, also the ones where nothing works 😉
I am not sure yet if I will put my blog to sleep for a while or if I find the time and words to share this journey here…and if I dare to share more of my attempts knowing that I still have soooooooo much to learn…there is still a perfectionist in me despite all my love for imperfect beauty 😉
Have you ever started something creative that you felt was missing in your life for a long time? How did it feel? Did you just keep it to yourself or share it with the world?