I bet you thought you would have to wait some months now until the next blog post…but no, it is already here!
No need to worry though that there will be a blog post every day – that would be too much for anyone I feel but neither will there be a fixed schedule.
In general, I am determined to write more regularly this time, actually to write a little every day as it is a really good exercise (also recommended by Stephen King in his book ‘On Writing’ which I can highly recommend) and I want it to become a habit. First, there are a few more topics related to my last post that I want to go into more depth about.
I have been thinking a lot about WHY I had lost my motivation to make photos during the last few months and one of the reasons was that I had developed a strange conviction.
I was so convinced that because I had a business now and was trying to establish myself as a ‘serious photographer’ all my photos needed to mean something deeper. There had to be a story, a metaphor, a deeper reason why I made the image. I no longer allowed myself to simply take (yes, not make but simply take or even better shoot) a photo just because I liked it…and of course I definitely could not share any images that did not fulfil my self-imposed requirements. All images HAD to be ‘portfolio-quality’…
I was at a point that I was even trying to find ‘fancy titles’ for my images…how stupid is that – especially when I have to admit that I myself did not remember those titles the next day :-D.
I had the same problem with my poems, I wanted them to be special and I was afraid that just writing them the way I thought would not make them special enough…so I looked up words in the dictionary… you are allowed to shake your head 😉
In case you were wondering, yes, the same also applied to my blog posts – I thought they all had to be super serious and oh so deep now…or why would anyone want to read them.
It was the fear of not being good enough, not being special enough…
The only comfort I can give myself is that I did not share any of those poems as I somehow did not like them and that I deleted the fancy titles for my images again – no, I wasn’t referring to all my titles even if you think they all sound fancy 😉 -…and since I wasn’t able to make any photos or write a blog post…no true evidence is left behind except for this blog post writing about it 😀
I had to realise that just taking (and sharing) a photo for the simple reason that I liked it, writing a simple poem with simple every-day words, writing a blog post only about the ‘boring’ things we all have to do (like archiving and reorganizing my images which I am doing at the moment) is absolutely ok.
Enjoying and seeing beauty in the simple things and tasks is also a special gift…or what do you think?