If you had asked me a year ago if I thought that my ‘fate was sealed’, I probably would have answered ‘yes’.
I lived with my husband and our two dogs in a beautiful house with a large garden in rural Denmark. I worked part-time from home which gave me enough time to do the household and enjoy my hobbies (photography and painting). The days went by one after the other, there was a routine, an acceptance. Then came COVID and it forced us to think about our lives and what we wanted. When we finally got divorced to preserve our friendship it was not a surprise but it still took me a while to figure out what to do – suddenly everything was possible again.
But was I brave enough to try and turn fate into destiny? The answer is ‘yes’.
When my mother died some years ago, I had promised myself that at the end of my life I don’t want to say ‘I wish I had’ and this was one of those moments where I had to keep this promise. So I decided to start completely new. While I have no concrete long-term plans, I do have dreams, a vision and a goal. I will no longer accept that fate decides my life but instead I will create my own destiny.
Where that destiny will be and what it will look like – I don’t know (yet) – but nobody does.
What I do know is that I will celebrate every success along the way and that I will get up again whenever I fall. I will dance among the stars, howl together with the moon, smile brighter than the sun and cry in the rain…I will live my life.
Now I sit here in my van – which has become my home -, I look at the endless ocean and listen to the sound of the wind and the waves. My soul is filled with freedom and creativity. My future is an empty book of which I don’t even know the title but it is waiting to be filled with adventures and experiences, with ideas and thoughts, with photos, paintings and poetry.
This blog will be my 'journ(ey)al' - and so the story begins.
To say it with one of my favourite quotes:
'One must still have chaos in oneself to be able to give birth to a dancing star.'
- Friedrich Nietzsche
…and, oh boy, do I have plenty of chaos in myself…